Rescuing Knight

 
“I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh…I will put breath in you, and you will come to life” Ezekiel 36:26, 37:6

My heart is still feeling the pain.  But it is FEELING.  That means it is alive and well and kicking!  It isn’t a heart of stone, but a heart of flesh that has been breathed into, breathed upon and has life in it.   Hence it feels the pain of being ignored at a celebratory event.  But it feels very much ALIVE.  If I felt nothing my heart would be stone.  If I felt nothing the spark of hope and dreams would have died.  If I felt nothing I would not be living.  My heart would be stone.

But I have a rescuing knight!  King David wrote about him so long ago and this same Rescuing Knight battles for my heart, for the good in my heart and not the bad.

From Psalm 18 (The Message)

“I love you, God – you make me strong

God is…the castle in which I live, my rescuing knight.

From his palace he hears my call, my cry brings me right into his presence – a private audience!

But me he caught – reached all the way from sky to sea; he pulled me out of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos, the void in which I was drowning. 

He stood me up on a wide-open field; I stood there saved – surprised to be love!

God made my life complete when I placed all the pieces before him.  When I got my act together, he gave me a fresh start.  Now I’m alert to God’s ways; I don’t take God for granted.  Every day I review the ways he works; I try not to miss a trick.  I feel put back together, and I’m watching my step.  God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes.”

I have thought about this and reread it over the past two days.  I’m not dancing around in the castle yet but I am aware I have a rescuing knight. I don’t have my act together but I’m holding my heart open to his eyes so he can rewrite any text that needs editing.  I think I just want to rest a bit and not even think about where he plans to take me.  Tonight I’ll just let him do whatever it takes to keep this heart alive, to keep my heart from running from the pain and keep it in the battle for life, for freedom and for love.  Yes my heart is in a battle to love unconditionally, irrevocably and remain soft with a strong vibrant steady beat.  And that feels good!

Oh God, my Rescuing Knight – fight this battle for me, with me, and give me courage to stand face to face with the enemy using Kingdom weapons, only Kingdom weapons.  Help me not to draw up the moat and become a coward.  Make each day a fresh start, a clean page, a continuing of your story and mine.