Out with the Old and in with the True

Why do we so often think the worst of ourselves instead of believing in the best that we are? All too often I react this way.

Yesterday had been one of those days where things didn’t go exactly as planned. In fact it seemed to be full of mistakes – my own mistakes. I wanted things to go perfectly the first time round. Sounds like a perfectionist lives inside this human “house”?! Ugh. I really don’t want to admit that, but it is the truth.

So I went to bed really annoyed with myself for not doing things just “perfectly”.

Then this morning I was awake early – well 3:30 to be specific, and the thought process had completely changed. I had been offered a challenge and when it came back as not quite what was required I had slipped into the “old” thought process that accepts defeat. But the “true” thought process is “I have a lot to offer, and I accept this as a challenge to let what is inside really come out”. I can and I must offer the best that I am and even if that doesn’t always fit for others, I am being true to myself. And I believe that honors my God. That isn’t pride I don’t think. Because, honestly, we don’t value who we are and what we can do.

The lie repeated over and over to the heart is that a mistake takes you out of the game. That is the old. The true is that our best is still there. It will always need refining and it will grow deeper and taken on greater quests. If we believe the true of ourselves won't we also see the true in others more quickly?

Today was a much better day. I recognized the old but chose to believe the true.