When we are excited it is easy to look into the eyes of others. When the pain grows within it is easier to avoid looking into others eyes - hiding our true feelings becomes the shield. It is so much easier to stand with my back to Abba and shout at the world outside to release the anger or hurt.
Yesterday the Spirit within whispered to me:
Why do you turn your back? I, Abba, am right here behind you. Can't you turn around and let me hold you? Come and let me wrap my arms around you, hold you close, where you can put your head upon my heart. Tell my heart those words you want to shout out. Come on, tell it directly to my heart. It won't hurt me but it will help heal you. If it is painful to look me in the eye that is not offensive to me. What is hurtful to me is when you don't want me to see your heart. So I'll hold you next to mine - talk straight to my heart. Tell it all you want to - it's big enough to take it!
Straight to the heart - from the wounded one to the healing One. Letting out the story made room for the balm to be applied. Somehow I sense the fragrance of that balm today as I rest my soul next to Abba's heart.
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thank you for writing this... it really spoke to me this evening. it reminds me to rest.
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