Sebastian, a tabby cat, resides at the same address as moi. He has been a resident there for a couple of years and it was not a case of me choosing him but he chose me. Really – he did! The visit to the SPCA was going to be a just a look, to think about having a pet live with me. This fellow, named Sherlock Holmes at the time was the last of the cats I “interviewed”. He strolled over and rubbed against my legs so I knelt down for closer inspection of this gray tabby! He proceeded to step onto my lap, snuggle his head in my neck and place his front paws on my shoulders. That was it. I fell in love with him and he accompanied me home. I wasn’t prepared for this turn of events so the journey home meant stopping to purchase such things as food, water bowl, litter box, toys etc. The name Sherlock Holmes had to go – just didn’t fit for me, so he was renamed Sebastian or Sebastiani depending on whether he is being address in English or Italian.
Sebastian is not your normal aloof kind of cat. Firstly he thinks that if someone is at home their sole reason is so he can snuggle with them. Secondly he wags his tail when he is happy. Never saw a cat like that before! When guests come he greets them at the door (as soon as the bell goes he runs to the door) and then takes his time visiting with each one.
This is a cat that is very connected to emotions! Sometimes I have been bawling my eyes out in the shower – more like my soul is weeping and it is deep groaning pain. One such time when I turned of the water I could hear Sebastian crying beyond the closed bathroom door. When I opened it he stood there, stopped crying and just looked – as if to say “are you okay?” When I sit to read, my feet up on the ottoman, my body cradled in the cushiony olive coloured chair, this cat will come and snuggle up. He places his head over my heart and his paw up on my shoulder. Sebastian is hugging me! The other night, book in my right hand, my left arm and hand cradling Sebastiani, I had this strange feeling that this was a picture from Abba. Sebastiani seems to love my company for no particular reason except he seems to love being close to me (albeit he knows I feed him too!).
Abba, the Almighty loves me/you and just loves us to snuggle up, just because we want to be close, and it is a safe place for the heart. That is the truth of the relationship I long for – and Abba offers. A relationship of such comfort that words are not always necessary, but simply feeling the breath of life is enough.
I didn’t always want to choose Yeshua’s love but that is the love that has chosen me and nothing will change that choice. That is a truth I am learning to accept – I have been chosen for love, for being me.
Sebastian doesn’t mind my tears, or my laughter, or when I dance round the room with him. He knows I am crazy! Abba doesn’t mind my emotions either. In fact as Sebastian sits close honoring my tears it is a picture of how They, the Divine Ones are honoring emotions. The truth is we were created with emotions and their expression can be our times of deepest honesty and communion with Them.
Creation - one of the most beautiful voices from the Almighty that speaks to all of our senses.
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