When Active Waiting Shifts

Connie made a comment on the previous posting/quote that much of what has been posted on this blog lately (very sporadically at that) has been about blessings. While I had not consciously been searching for writings on “blessing”, it is what the wind, Ruach, has been speaking to my heart and soul.

Blessings that will come through waiting has been a clique repeated and given as wise words over the years, yet I have not found the blessings or the waiting to have come with the peace and confidence those words were supposed to have held.

Sunday evening a group had gathered and we ended with communion together – a sacred ritual for me. Afterwards as we stood around, someone very beloved to me, gently brought the cup to me and spoke of the fact that Jesus created me to be a blessing, and as he blessed, so I too was to accept this cup and be a blessing as I walk through life.
These words seem to be wearing a path around my heart as I ponder them, sit with them, speak to the Almighty on them and wait to understand how I can live them out more deeply, honestly, and richly.

There has been much waiting for me: what my purpose was, my passion is, my identity, my true way of worship, and how the heart of this woman can love. There active waiting often has meant wrestling that seemingly had no end, stole the energy and love my heart held and I was left with contempt and anger. Yet that too, the contempt and anger, have been the catalyst that called my soul to seek more deeply what it means to really live with passion and to begin to believe that beyond the chasm of brokenness lies a way to dance in a way all my own.

The last few months seem to have brought about an explosion of blessings that have arrived with such unexpected gentleness and honor, that I am rocked with awe! And with that comes the wonder of knowing these blessings are not mine to hold within but rather they are gifts to give back, to share, to embrace, to lean into. They invite me back to Holy Presence to wait, actively wait, so I do not run ahead, nor do I stay behind in fear. Perhaps the simplest way to describe it would be to say that my fingers have begun to find new ways to play the melodies I have been singing within and I have found myself returning more to the piano for longer periods of time letting the inner compositions find their own voice. Could it be that active waiting in Holy Presence, is about the variations on a simply melody that allow us to experience the range of notes as never before?

Allow myself to become more deeply enveloped by the truth that my soul is a contemplative soul has also let the wind, the Ruach of the Almighty show me the blessings held in the solitude and solace, and embracing active waiting.

It is still a mystery to me – a mystery that continually invites one to explore and move into what is held there.

Celtic Blessing of Light

“May the blessing of light be on you, light without and light within.

May the blessed sunlight shine upon you and warm your heart till it glows,
Like a great peat fire, so that the stranger may come
and warm himself at it, as well as the friend.

And may the light shine out of the eyes of you,
like a candle set in the windows of a house,
Bidding the wanderer to come in out of the storm.

And may the blessing of the rain be on you - the soft sweet rain.
May it fall upon your spirit so that all the little flowers may spring up,
And shed their sweetness on the air.

And may the blessing of the great rains be on you,
that they beat upon your spirit and wash it fair and clean,
and leave there many a shining pool, and sometimes a star.

And may the blessing of the earth be on you - the great round earth;
May you ever have a kindly greeting for people you pass
as you are going along the roads.

And now may the Lord bless you, and bless you kindly.”

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